bridging....

jessie msged me a dunno how many msg msg persuading me to go with janey and ting... janey too...

didnt joined them cos firstly, i wan to shop with merry more.. secondly, i dun think i will be able to shop with ting and not feeling awkward even though we are able to play mahjong like nth has happened...

mahjong only take abt like 3 hours at most? whereas for shopping, it will take like more than 3 hours, even abt twice or thrice the 3 hours.. and that's only the 3 of us... dun tink i will be able to converse with her normally.. will be talking to janey mostly ba...

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actually i really miss the times when we went out together... haha.. laughing together, gossiping together, shopping together, crying together... like what i have mentioned in the post in 2005 (that was really very long ago)... really been through quite a lot...

i also dunno what happened that causes this friendship to 变质... was it the decision i made or was it the decision she made later or was it our characters that just make it difficult for the three of us to be friends for long.. there always exist a period of cooling down...

actually, i dun really wan to change my life right now... maybe im being selfish...is it? but i just dun wan to change... work is making me very tired... i dun wan another complicated friendship to tire me further...

if it is not possible to trust me in future, why bother to mend the bridge between us...

like what janey says, we are adults now..and we have our commitments... dont think there will be time for quarrels to happen.... and distrust to happen... cos we might not even see each other once in a month... unlike in the past when we will see each other at least twice a month? or maybe more....

but then, sometimes i just felt that the gap is there.... it will be very "..." of me to ignore that gap and treat it as nth has happened...


time will tell i guess....